Category Archives: betrayal
Welcome, kiddos. Today, I have cut out dairy out of my diet just so I can keep a more authentic approach to the Separation diet I wrote about in my previous post. So for my post-workout shake, I got Horizon’s Lactose free and fat free milk (I LOVE milk just like I love peanut butter, so I couldn’t completely make a switch to water). I had not added any fruit into my shake as it would violate my Separation diet agreement (fruits, and bananas particularly, are a form of carb after all), but I added a tiny bit of peanut butter(less than a teaspoon) for a flavor. Peanut butter to me is like a candy to a child, I just love the stuff!.
….Went to the gym today as I do everyday. I am SO attuned to going to the gym by now, that as I entered from my car into the gym today, the same music that was playing IN MY CAR on my workout CD mix, was playing on the gym’s speakers as I entered it!!! What a bizzare coincidence, I thought. So I literally picked up where I left off. It was a leg day and I finished my routine pretty quickly and powerfully, in less than 2 hrs instead of the usual 2,5 hrs.
I rented the movie Son of God as it just became available on Redbox. I loved the movie, I will look into buying it…it definitely takes your breath away when you see what kind of suffering and adversity Jesus has suffered, how much has he bled from his wounds externally, as well as internally from being betrayed and sacrificed…not just betrayed by Judas (one man only) but his own people. Just weeks ago, I felt the same burning of betrayal, a burning from hell, a blade of betrayal in my own heart – those who haven’t been betrayed, probably won’t be able to relate to this brutal experience of rejection and denial.
And yet, the pain and the wounds heal with time – even a week ago, it hurt more than it does now. And a week from now, it will be even a more faint memory. You sign a sign of relief, you release the burden, as life comes down on you with never ending puzzles and its daily lessons…the pain fades…And you have survived, and you have been reborn again, never to repeat the same mistakes again, never to take your peace for granted, never to see the world with the same eyes again…the same indifferent world as it will ever be, a world that survived wars, unspeakable evils, and witnessed bloodshed and tears of millions…rotating now as it rotated back then, as it will rotate millions of years into the future, without skipping a beat…or so it might seem…
Because we all know, that behind that indifference there’s ever persisting faith, shining like the sunrays through the rainstorm with a glimpse of hope on humanity.
May all my readers be blessed with the power to stay true to the spirit – a spirit, that must be reborn to be fortified, to ascend to the higher planes of existence and expand our awareness beyond what it seen by the naked eye. And for that, we must remain STRONG so stay strong with me, and may your faith be everlasting.
May the Spirit guide you!