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People wish us happiness. People “just want to be happy”. Some even come to thing that happiness is a meaning of life. In truth.., you would be just fine without happiness, and expecting and chasing happiness is just another form of unhealthy attachment. Not to mention that happiness is just a feeling! And a feeling, like any feeling, is fleeting – I have even compared it in my previous posts as a “wild horse” of your brain. Instead of trying to feel good or avoiding feeling bad my suggestion is to simply QUIT feeling altogether. It’s best to feel nothing at all, or “to feel content”. Contention should be like an empty cup – not bad nor good, emptiness cannot be good nor bad. It’s just not there.
So for a week now I’ve been trying to fill my mind with this intentional void, trying not to feel. When feelings inevitably came, I dismissed them as soon as I consciously realized they were there – as if they were just winds, I exorcised my unwelcome guests. Some crept up, like a feeling of sadness that would slowly come up as a knot in my stomach in the mornings. I could tell that this sadness was trying to tell me some unexpressed thought from my “lower self” who was mute and couldn’t speak… but I had to simply “work through” the feelings as if they were a passing sickness – the sooner it’s gone, the better I’ll get!
…Because I’m trying to live from the higher plane here, without chasing some invisible, uncontrollable firebird. I am my own person here, living my life in the moment of existence and simply “content” with emptiness and it’s lack of meaning – other than bringing past and future moments together; conceiving and bringing my goals and visions to fruition; I am simply, traveling in time.
So when we are talking about us humans being slaves to our emotions – when we as humanity are so exorbitant that we, my friends, are EMOTIONALLY OBESE!
What is this, this sadness, or this gladness… This madness??? It’s self-indulgence. It’s lack of self-control. It’s not being able to separate your animal nature and your human nature… Your cortex. WHY? Well first of all, we as humanity of the 21st century, are not very emotionally intelligent – our technological advancements and actual human evolution has progressed much more!!! Ever wonder why is that? Maybe because our emotions and our intelligence is two separate entities – not even apples and oranges! They couldn’t be more different. Since emotional “creature” (or Animal) lies within our brain, our Thinking Entity (or Humanity) has assumed responsibility of a parent to it – it’s been taking care for it. But… We are separate – we are not one and the same. Our animal “pets”, or our emotions, are a separate being which is WAY OVERESTIMATED and whose importance is blown waaaaay out of proportions. I think it was created as our downfall – god didn’t want us to be too perfect, so he created this capricious animal within us – so that only the most intelligent people could concur and tame the “beast”, thus living a fulfilling life to a complete satisfaction of his minds capacity. Those who were led by the beast, have degraded and perished as result of DEVOLUTION – those species who used their intellect less, have unknowingly regressed and suffered mental degradation, becoming more primitive over time. People who have schizophrenia or other mental problems, tend to have exaggerated feelings. Perhaps it’s a natures way out – giving the person with mental decline a tool to self destruct. After all we are talking about The Beast, or our Lower Self. We all have it, but are we the ones in control?..
I will let you ponder on that.
Your sibling in transformation –
Welcome, kiddos. Today, I have cut out dairy out of my diet just so I can keep a more authentic approach to the Separation diet I wrote about in my previous post. So for my post-workout shake, I got Horizon’s Lactose free and fat free milk (I LOVE milk just like I love peanut butter, so I couldn’t completely make a switch to water). I had not added any fruit into my shake as it would violate my Separation diet agreement (fruits, and bananas particularly, are a form of carb after all), but I added a tiny bit of peanut butter(less than a teaspoon) for a flavor. Peanut butter to me is like a candy to a child, I just love the stuff!.
….Went to the gym today as I do everyday. I am SO attuned to going to the gym by now, that as I entered from my car into the gym today, the same music that was playing IN MY CAR on my workout CD mix, was playing on the gym’s speakers as I entered it!!! What a bizzare coincidence, I thought. So I literally picked up where I left off. It was a leg day and I finished my routine pretty quickly and powerfully, in less than 2 hrs instead of the usual 2,5 hrs.
I rented the movie Son of God as it just became available on Redbox. I loved the movie, I will look into buying it…it definitely takes your breath away when you see what kind of suffering and adversity Jesus has suffered, how much has he bled from his wounds externally, as well as internally from being betrayed and sacrificed…not just betrayed by Judas (one man only) but his own people. Just weeks ago, I felt the same burning of betrayal, a burning from hell, a blade of betrayal in my own heart – those who haven’t been betrayed, probably won’t be able to relate to this brutal experience of rejection and denial.
And yet, the pain and the wounds heal with time – even a week ago, it hurt more than it does now. And a week from now, it will be even a more faint memory. You sign a sign of relief, you release the burden, as life comes down on you with never ending puzzles and its daily lessons…the pain fades…And you have survived, and you have been reborn again, never to repeat the same mistakes again, never to take your peace for granted, never to see the world with the same eyes again…the same indifferent world as it will ever be, a world that survived wars, unspeakable evils, and witnessed bloodshed and tears of millions…rotating now as it rotated back then, as it will rotate millions of years into the future, without skipping a beat…or so it might seem…
Because we all know, that behind that indifference there’s ever persisting faith, shining like the sunrays through the rainstorm with a glimpse of hope on humanity.
May all my readers be blessed with the power to stay true to the spirit – a spirit, that must be reborn to be fortified, to ascend to the higher planes of existence and expand our awareness beyond what it seen by the naked eye. And for that, we must remain STRONG so stay strong with me, and may your faith be everlasting.
May the Spirit guide you!